I am willing

4 hours of sleep, 4 hours of flying, and I'll be in a far away place far north of here. Joe Lee is in town for a few days, though a dinner at Chili's is all I'm going to see of him since I'm out of here. He's off to SF for school in a month, so maybe I'll see him when I'm out there in July.

Father has preserved me in ways incredible to me, not even counting the ways that I am oblivious to. I've been kept from many things and people who would do my soul harm, at times through my own diligence and many times through an inexplicable overruling of my own will, to the point where I am confused after the fact why I behaved as I did. When a sovereign Divine Will meets a free human will, something has to God. Praise God that it's been my will that's been brought low.

Some people would argue "a strong person can look temptation in the eye and turn it down." Proverbs says "a prudent man sees the evil and hides himself." The best way to defeat an enemy is to deny it battle. An ounce of prevention is worth a pound of cure. Inaction requires no faith, but courage depends on faith. Taking things into your own hands requires no submission and patience depends on faith.

I'm willing to take this risk, if given the opportunity. Father, reveal the opportunity if Your will deems it to my good, and I will take the step in faith. There's no other way I'd rather live.