Thoughts to Hate

My handsome husband

We spent January away from home, a fact which I feel the freedom to disclose now that we're home!  One day we went up to the camp of a family from church in the Adirondacks to enjoy the beauty and a big fire. 

I spent a bit of time walking in solitude, drinking in the fresh air, and communing with God. 

 That awful night in December when my worsening pains drained away the hopes we had for the life of the baby we were expecting, my eye fell on a photocopy of a selection from Spurgeon's Morning and Evening.  It reads,

If none of God's saints were poor and tried, we should not know half so well the consolations of divine grace.  When we find the wanderer who has not where to lay his head, who yet can say, "Still will I trust in the Lord;" when we see the pauper starving on bread and water, who still glories in Jesus; when we see the bereaved widow overwhelmed in affliction, and yet having faith in Christ, oh! what honour it reflects on the gospel.  God's grace is illustrated and magnified in the poverty and trials of believers.  Saints bear up under every discouragement, believing that all things work together for their good, and that out of apparent evils a real blessing shall ultimately spring--that their God will either work a deliverance for them speedily, or most assuredly support them in the trouble, as long as He is pleased to keep them in it.  This patience of the saints proves the power of divine grace.  There is a lighthouse out at sea: it is a calm night--I cannot tell whether the edifice is firm; the tempest must rage about it, and then I shall know whether it will stand.  So with the Spirit's work: if it were not on many occasions surrounded with tempestuous waters, we should not know that it was true and strong; if the winds did not blow upon it, we should not know how firm and secure it was.  The master-works of God are those men who stand in the midst of difficulties, stedfast, unmoveable,--

"Calm mid the bewildering cry,

Confident of victory."

He who would glorify his God must set his account upon meeting with many trials.  No man can be illustrious before the Lord unless his conflicts be many.  If then, yours be a much-tried path, rejoice in it, because you will the better show forth the all-sufficient grace of God.

[And then, the part that most reached my soul,]

As for His failing you, never dream of it--hate the thought.  The God who has been sufficient until now, should be trusted to the end.

(March 4 Morning)

My brother, Derek, in action